Why the ‘Publish’ button scares me
With over four hundred posts to my credit on WordPress, one would think the anxiety of clicking the ‘publish’ button would have subsided by now.
It hasn’t.
For some reason, a wave of terror still washes over me each time I contemplate clicking on it.
My post is finished.
I’ve checked it several times for grammar and edits.
I preview it to see ‘how it reads’, being as objective as I can given my authorship.
I like it.
It’s time time to hit publish.
It’s right about this time I begin to feel apprehensive. Maybe I shouldn’t publish this one. It’s probably too caustic.
Do I really want the blogging world to know about this event? The comments will be bad, I just know it.
What’s going to happen if any of my friends or family read this one? I know I’ll get a ration of shit over it. Don’t do it.
Fuck it.
Hit the ’save draft’ instead, you can always come back to it later, I reason. Maybe when you’re not so tired or in a better frame of mind.
Yeah, that’s it. I’ll look it over when I’m feeling more ‘myself’.
Save draft it is.
Thank God that’s over with. [Click]
One hour later…
Hmm. I wonder how many hits I’ve had today? Fifty? One hundred? I wonder which posts people are reading?
The pressure is too much..I click on my site stats shortcut.
Five? Really?
Oh, and there’s a comment pending. Oh boy…let’s see what that is.
“You’re blasphemous! I don’t care for how you ridicule our lord, Jesus.”
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Let’s see, where’s that delete permanently button…there it is. Don’t need to share this comment with anyone. [bye-bye...click]
Now, where was I?
All posts, that’s right. Hmm, let’s see, there’s one I need to publish.
Argghhh, not again—Jesus!
The publish button. I hate the publish button.
[eyes closed, face squinting with brow located where my nose used to be] Arghhhhhhhhhhh! [clicks publish]
I’ve found making the argh sound is helpful when clicking the publish button. Kind of like I’m some karate dude about to chop a pile of bricks in half.
It relieves the pain of not knowing whether I forgot to check ten lines down from the end…a paragraph I put there and had every intention of coming back to, but never did, missing it altogether in the preview.
The pubish button scares me and I’ll tell you why. I rarely….fuck, why can’t I keep a coherent thought today.
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I never like hitting publis
February 1, 2012 at 11:32 am
You poor thing.
I write as I think it, publish it. I can’t go over it, check for grammar, yeah some time’s I’ll see spelling or grammar errors and edit them. But for me, posts are natural. Mostly when I’m upset or wanting to tell friends about things that happen through the day.
Thanks for this post though,
February 1, 2012 at 2:30 pm
I think that in reading this post of yours, it was like catching a cold…. b/c I just had something happen involving this button that did make me worry.
I published a new post, started linking it around (see your About page hahaha), and then realized there was a mistake so clicked Edit… like I do pretty much every time I publish something because I don’t believe in proofreading haha. Well normally once Editing an existing post the Publish button changes to Update…. but I instinctively clicked it when done only to notice that it said Publish again….. and then the WP sidebar popped up saying it was my 67 post adding one more to count of something that already existing, and turns out it didn’t make duplicates on the site either.
de ja vu of publishing. something has changed in the matrix.
February 5, 2012 at 7:18 am
I always check for grammar, re-check, preview, re-check, rinse, repeat, and then days later I’ll read it again (why?) and I’ll still find something stupid that I need to correct. Work harder ‘proofread’ button!